Another nighttime/middle of the night update...WOOHOO
Ok so, obviously, insomnia is still lurking...but depression seems to be getting better. I think I can thank a little friend I like to call coffee for that one. Yes I know I know I know it's unhealthy to drink a lot of coffee, but if it works, it works. In other news on Tuesday I had my hair cut off again. It's a bob now...I love it, and I want to keep it short.
I really don't have much to write about. I've been steering clear of the people that are negative. Oh I guess I can vent about something...and I really don't care if this girl sees this, hates me, comments this...bring it on.
So for my parent's anniversary (November 10), my dad was sick, so they didn't get to go out to dinner like they had originally planned. So my mom and I decided to go to a mexican restaurant, have a margarita or beer, and just chillax and enjoy the evening. Well we get there, mom had a mega beer I had a margarita, and this girl whom I used to be friends with texts me to ask why I've been ignoring her...so I respond that I rarely have my phone on me or around me, I'm not ignoring anyone just staying away from the drama. So we text back and forth for a few then my mom asks me to ask her to join us, so I did, and 15 min or so later she shows up. My mom offers to buy her a daqueri, ok. Well we talk about how I'm doing for a few seconds, then (of course) the conversation is focused on her. Then my mom and I start joking about the medications that I'm on (ALL OF WHICH ARE PRESCRIBED TO ME AND THINGS THAT I NEED), so my mom gets up and goes to the bathroom, this girl keeps talking about it, yada yada I'm joking around. We say our goodbyes, all is well whatever. The next day I get this text about how it was so great to see my mom and me and she missed us and bla bla, so I'm like wow maybe she's grown as a person. Next message I get is "so can I have a few of your Vicoden".... I'm thinking what the F***, the audacity...so I say "Are you serious? No, I'm all out" or something to that extent (I'm not going to give out pills that I need to someone who wants to abuse them!!!) So she doesn't respond....like at all, nothing. It's like a week or so later, I get a text at like 2:30 in the morning from this girl asking if I had slept with some random person I've never even heard of...WHAT THE FUCK I said, absolutely not, who is this person and why are you even asking me this. She just responds with "Ok". Haven't heard from her since. True story, I'm outraged, I tell my mom about it, and she agrees that I should cut ties with her, she's been a problem for awhile...I guess I just didn't want to see it. So in short, I'm done with her, and anyone like her. I have no interest in ever seeing her again.
That's my rant about snotty bitches that I can't stand (well one in general) *rolls eyes*
I'll go off on another tangent later...but for now I'm done.
Thanksbai
Friday, November 26, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Just One Of Those Nights...
So I'm feeling particularly down tonight...I think it's loneliness more than anything. My life has changed dramatically since May...and I think it's normal to have down days when everything that has happened, happened. I can't even begin to put into words. Maybe I should try poetry? I don't remember much about poetry from college...it's been years since I took those courses. Poetry doesn't have to rhyme...does it even have to make sense? I'll try something....read on...
The beauty within does not reflect the image in the mirror
I can't help but think to myself "Why"
None of the pieces in the puzzle seem to match
None of this makes sense
Alright, maybe that sucks...I'm better at just being totally up front about things. I have nothing to hide...so why am I so reluctant to talk about things? My mind is constantly going, but I don't always put it into words. It would help I'm sure.
Well Saturday I'm going to get my hair cut. A trim, but I'm going shorter, an angled bob. It seems like I don't want any part of what was past. Who I was before May is not at all who I am now. It seems distant, like a past life. And in reality...it is. Never had I ever imagined this, or where I am. Everything has changed. Everything.
If I painted a picture to express my feelings inside it would be dark. Yes, I suffer from depression, yes it's severe. Am I going to hurt myself? No, but it doesn't make it any easier to face. People's opinions mean nothing to me now, and for that I am happy. I can finally live for myself, do what I enjoy, dress how I want, etc. There's too many people in this world who do things because they think it's how someone else would do something, or how someone else acts. Why live to please others? It's your life. Everyone is entitled to their own.
I know my blogs ramble a lot but the idea is to get thoughts out of my head, so I can sleep...maybe. Part of being an insomniac is having an overactive mind. I'm always thinking, I can't stop moving while I'm awake, and when I'm asleep, my dreams are vivid, strange. The mind doesn't stop. I need a mental break, to think about nothing at all, and relax. I wish that were easy or possible even. When I put my computer down, or whatever it is that I'm working on, I think about what I need to do, or what I could be doing, or what what what what. I can't just sit and think about nothing at all, and relax. It's so frustrating. Lately the Ambien hasn't been helping much. Sure I can fall asleep...after awhile...but I sleep for 3 or 4 hours then I'm up again. I don't really know what to do. My doctor keeps bringing up a counselor everytime I go to him, but I don't want to talk to a complete stranger about my life, what I've been through... So I confide in my blog, and a few close friends to talk about things with. It helps when I do.
Thank you to those who have listened to my troubles, I truly appreciate it. I can't help but to feel guilty when I have a down day, because I don't want to be one of those people who others label as negative. I guess it's only human. Just something else I need to work on.
Well it's off to rest my brain...or attempt..
I got nothin...Night
The beauty within does not reflect the image in the mirror
I can't help but think to myself "Why"
None of the pieces in the puzzle seem to match
None of this makes sense
Alright, maybe that sucks...I'm better at just being totally up front about things. I have nothing to hide...so why am I so reluctant to talk about things? My mind is constantly going, but I don't always put it into words. It would help I'm sure.
Well Saturday I'm going to get my hair cut. A trim, but I'm going shorter, an angled bob. It seems like I don't want any part of what was past. Who I was before May is not at all who I am now. It seems distant, like a past life. And in reality...it is. Never had I ever imagined this, or where I am. Everything has changed. Everything.
If I painted a picture to express my feelings inside it would be dark. Yes, I suffer from depression, yes it's severe. Am I going to hurt myself? No, but it doesn't make it any easier to face. People's opinions mean nothing to me now, and for that I am happy. I can finally live for myself, do what I enjoy, dress how I want, etc. There's too many people in this world who do things because they think it's how someone else would do something, or how someone else acts. Why live to please others? It's your life. Everyone is entitled to their own.
I know my blogs ramble a lot but the idea is to get thoughts out of my head, so I can sleep...maybe. Part of being an insomniac is having an overactive mind. I'm always thinking, I can't stop moving while I'm awake, and when I'm asleep, my dreams are vivid, strange. The mind doesn't stop. I need a mental break, to think about nothing at all, and relax. I wish that were easy or possible even. When I put my computer down, or whatever it is that I'm working on, I think about what I need to do, or what I could be doing, or what what what what. I can't just sit and think about nothing at all, and relax. It's so frustrating. Lately the Ambien hasn't been helping much. Sure I can fall asleep...after awhile...but I sleep for 3 or 4 hours then I'm up again. I don't really know what to do. My doctor keeps bringing up a counselor everytime I go to him, but I don't want to talk to a complete stranger about my life, what I've been through... So I confide in my blog, and a few close friends to talk about things with. It helps when I do.
Thank you to those who have listened to my troubles, I truly appreciate it. I can't help but to feel guilty when I have a down day, because I don't want to be one of those people who others label as negative. I guess it's only human. Just something else I need to work on.
Well it's off to rest my brain...or attempt..
I got nothin...Night
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Disjointed
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Headache
ARGH... all day long I've had a headache that I can't get rid of! I hope my trip to the chiropractor tommorow will help that...
Right now I'm sitting in bed, with a snoring dog plastered to my side. Dogs are absolutely amazing, and they're probably the closest thing a person can get to unconditional love. It's great to know when things are going bad, or hope seems lost, that I have 2 furry dog children that will love me no matter what. They are what get me through the worst of days.
So my sleep pattern is still way off. At 1 :30 in the morning I'm not the least bit tired, and I wake up around 9 regardless of what time I get to bed. I guess if my body is working properly, I can't complain...My collarbone still bothers me daily..I'm coming to terms with the fact that it will likely be a constant problem. I want so much to be able to model again, but when I have days where I feel freshly broken it seems so out of reach. But I can't let pain hold me back from what I am passionate about.
I keep telling myself that I'm going to make a video to post on youtube, every day I say "oh I'll do that tommorow". Then it comes to be 1:30 in the morning and I'm like "oh crap". I want to but I still can't find the motivation sometimes. It's frusterating after everything. I keep contemplating the what if's and I know I can't do that, because the past is the past, everything I've been through has happened for a reason, and there's nothing I can change but the future. I found a really cool dream website the other night and with it had a free tarot card reading. It said not to look too much into it, just for entertainment, but it was actually fairly accurate. I was impressed.
Another one of my passions is graphics. I love creating things from scratch and seeing them come to life. Today I made/finished a graphic for a music website in Canada for t-shirts. It may be something constant as I was asked to make another design. This is the kind of release, break, business I've been waiting for, needing. It would be amazing if I could do graphics as more that just a part time thing. To have a constant flow of work in this economy would be great. I'm keeping my fingers crossed, but won't get my hopes up either. I had a graphics company name, Atropos Design, but I want something different that reflects who I am, what I do, and what I've been through. I'm thinking on it, but hope to come up with something soon. Well I've rambled for long enough tonight. It's time for me to...maybe try to sleep?
Fuzzy Snoring Doggy Kisses
Right now I'm sitting in bed, with a snoring dog plastered to my side. Dogs are absolutely amazing, and they're probably the closest thing a person can get to unconditional love. It's great to know when things are going bad, or hope seems lost, that I have 2 furry dog children that will love me no matter what. They are what get me through the worst of days.
So my sleep pattern is still way off. At 1 :30 in the morning I'm not the least bit tired, and I wake up around 9 regardless of what time I get to bed. I guess if my body is working properly, I can't complain...My collarbone still bothers me daily..I'm coming to terms with the fact that it will likely be a constant problem. I want so much to be able to model again, but when I have days where I feel freshly broken it seems so out of reach. But I can't let pain hold me back from what I am passionate about.
I keep telling myself that I'm going to make a video to post on youtube, every day I say "oh I'll do that tommorow". Then it comes to be 1:30 in the morning and I'm like "oh crap". I want to but I still can't find the motivation sometimes. It's frusterating after everything. I keep contemplating the what if's and I know I can't do that, because the past is the past, everything I've been through has happened for a reason, and there's nothing I can change but the future. I found a really cool dream website the other night and with it had a free tarot card reading. It said not to look too much into it, just for entertainment, but it was actually fairly accurate. I was impressed.
Another one of my passions is graphics. I love creating things from scratch and seeing them come to life. Today I made/finished a graphic for a music website in Canada for t-shirts. It may be something constant as I was asked to make another design. This is the kind of release, break, business I've been waiting for, needing. It would be amazing if I could do graphics as more that just a part time thing. To have a constant flow of work in this economy would be great. I'm keeping my fingers crossed, but won't get my hopes up either. I had a graphics company name, Atropos Design, but I want something different that reflects who I am, what I do, and what I've been through. I'm thinking on it, but hope to come up with something soon. Well I've rambled for long enough tonight. It's time for me to...maybe try to sleep?
Fuzzy Snoring Doggy Kisses
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Taggerooni
Well, I want to do a YouTube tag video....and I intend on doing it this weekend but I have the questions right here, and I figured I would answer them....might as well! It's 17 Questions...
So this is my blog post for the evening :o)
Questions
1. How did you get your youtube user name?
My username was one of those middle of the night decisions. I deleted my account on Blogspot because I didn't use it (not this one), little did I know that also would delete my youtube account. So I had to think fast on what I wanted the new one to be. LipglossNDiamonds...two of my favorite things...and so my youtube username was born.
2. If you could change your name to anything, what would it be and why?
I don't think I would change my name...no reason to. This is what I've always gone by.
3. If you could go back in time and give your younger self advice, what would it be and why?
Cherish Every Moment
4. How old were you when you first learned to blow a bubblegum bubble?
I don't remember...I want to say 5 or 6? Where I can't exactly recall!
5. What did you want to be when you were little?
Ariel (in preschool), a fashion designer, a litigator, and a counselor...I ended up getting my degree in the last two! (Criminal Justice & Psychology)
6. What do you order at starbucks?
Peppermint Mocha or White Chocolate Mocha
7. What's the hardest you ever laughed?
The most recent hard laugh that I remember was when I was still in a wheelchair and we were going out for dinner and I put a poncho on my dog Jazmine. She was sitting all pretty when something caused her to want to get up and run and her foot caught on the poncho and she fell face first onto the floor. I couldn't stop laughing as bad as I felt because that was the first time I had laughed in a long time.
8. If you could play any musical instrument, which would it be and why?
The violin. I don't know why but I've always wanted to play the violin, I think it's a beautiful instrument.
9. What's your favorite thing to do when your upset?
When I'm upset I like to watch Disney movies, and snuggle with my dogs. They are my babies and my best friends.
10. What's your favorite movie?
The Nightmare Before Christmas & Godfather Part II
11. What's one food you can not live without?
Chocolate....there is no way I could ever do without...OMG so good lol
12. What's your favorite dessert?
Chocolate? lol
13. Favorite pizza topping?
Sausage...but I don't really eat pizza all that much. It's usually too greasy for my taste.
14. Would you rather have the superpower to read minds, or the superpower to be invisible?
I would be invisible because honestly, I don't really care what people think.
15. What did you do for your last birthday?
For my quarter of a century birthday, I had dinner at a steakhouse with my family and a couple close friends at the time.
16. If you had one personal "selfish" wish, what would it be and why?
I would wish to have my grandma back. I miss her so much and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I know she's watching over me and my family.
17. What does OMGHHKP mean to you?
Ok...I looked this up on google and apparently some beauty guru on Youtube made it up? I don't know what it means but I say.... OMGWTFBBQ!
So this is my blog post for the evening :o)
Questions
1. How did you get your youtube user name?
My username was one of those middle of the night decisions. I deleted my account on Blogspot because I didn't use it (not this one), little did I know that also would delete my youtube account. So I had to think fast on what I wanted the new one to be. LipglossNDiamonds...two of my favorite things...and so my youtube username was born.
2. If you could change your name to anything, what would it be and why?
I don't think I would change my name...no reason to. This is what I've always gone by.
3. If you could go back in time and give your younger self advice, what would it be and why?
Cherish Every Moment
4. How old were you when you first learned to blow a bubblegum bubble?
I don't remember...I want to say 5 or 6? Where I can't exactly recall!
5. What did you want to be when you were little?
Ariel (in preschool), a fashion designer, a litigator, and a counselor...I ended up getting my degree in the last two! (Criminal Justice & Psychology)
6. What do you order at starbucks?
Peppermint Mocha or White Chocolate Mocha
7. What's the hardest you ever laughed?
The most recent hard laugh that I remember was when I was still in a wheelchair and we were going out for dinner and I put a poncho on my dog Jazmine. She was sitting all pretty when something caused her to want to get up and run and her foot caught on the poncho and she fell face first onto the floor. I couldn't stop laughing as bad as I felt because that was the first time I had laughed in a long time.
8. If you could play any musical instrument, which would it be and why?
The violin. I don't know why but I've always wanted to play the violin, I think it's a beautiful instrument.
9. What's your favorite thing to do when your upset?
When I'm upset I like to watch Disney movies, and snuggle with my dogs. They are my babies and my best friends.
10. What's your favorite movie?
The Nightmare Before Christmas & Godfather Part II
11. What's one food you can not live without?
Chocolate....there is no way I could ever do without...OMG so good lol
12. What's your favorite dessert?
Chocolate? lol
13. Favorite pizza topping?
Sausage...but I don't really eat pizza all that much. It's usually too greasy for my taste.
14. Would you rather have the superpower to read minds, or the superpower to be invisible?
I would be invisible because honestly, I don't really care what people think.
15. What did you do for your last birthday?
For my quarter of a century birthday, I had dinner at a steakhouse with my family and a couple close friends at the time.
16. If you had one personal "selfish" wish, what would it be and why?
I would wish to have my grandma back. I miss her so much and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I know she's watching over me and my family.
17. What does OMGHHKP mean to you?
Ok...I looked this up on google and apparently some beauty guru on Youtube made it up? I don't know what it means but I say.... OMGWTFBBQ!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Just Because
I feel the need to write, but I don't have a specific topic.
I've felt really antsy today and I don't know why, maybe the anxiety...probably. I've tried absolutely every one of my hobbies to try and get my mind occupied, but it still races like crazy. I barely ate anything today because my stomach has been so upset from everything on my mind. Not even things that make any sense, just everything in the world. I wish I could express in words how much I want to feel normal again, to be completely happy, and content. What happened to me?
My physician keeps bringing up going to a therapist each time I come to see him again for a followup, but I'm not interested. I have seen one before, was not comfortable with it. I don't see why I should tell a complete stranger my story just to get it out. It would takes months, maybe longer for all of these problems to surface. There are so many things I've faced. I wouldn't even know where to begin. I usually feel better after writing a blog, just because I can get my thoughts out.
My collarbone hurts a lot lately, I'm tired of dealing with the pain but I have no other choice. Why did this happen? I can't do anything but shake my head. I feel so angry when I think about it. There's no words.
I'm making graphics for my website. I'm really liking how they are turning out. I am going to promise myself to start modeling again after the first of the year. I can have some time to try to get better. Try being the key word, but I miss it a lot. I'm not ready to give it up but I get negative sometimes and think it's my only option. I don't know that I'll ever be able to wear heels again, or run a mile. My ankle will always be weak and that's the truth. Sure I could, but how much would I hurt afterwards?
Just a bad day for me I guess...I have those from time to time, I can't always be positive, although sometimes I feel like people are upset if I'm not.
Deep breaths and positive thoughts (trying anyway)
I've felt really antsy today and I don't know why, maybe the anxiety...probably. I've tried absolutely every one of my hobbies to try and get my mind occupied, but it still races like crazy. I barely ate anything today because my stomach has been so upset from everything on my mind. Not even things that make any sense, just everything in the world. I wish I could express in words how much I want to feel normal again, to be completely happy, and content. What happened to me?
My physician keeps bringing up going to a therapist each time I come to see him again for a followup, but I'm not interested. I have seen one before, was not comfortable with it. I don't see why I should tell a complete stranger my story just to get it out. It would takes months, maybe longer for all of these problems to surface. There are so many things I've faced. I wouldn't even know where to begin. I usually feel better after writing a blog, just because I can get my thoughts out.
My collarbone hurts a lot lately, I'm tired of dealing with the pain but I have no other choice. Why did this happen? I can't do anything but shake my head. I feel so angry when I think about it. There's no words.
I'm making graphics for my website. I'm really liking how they are turning out. I am going to promise myself to start modeling again after the first of the year. I can have some time to try to get better. Try being the key word, but I miss it a lot. I'm not ready to give it up but I get negative sometimes and think it's my only option. I don't know that I'll ever be able to wear heels again, or run a mile. My ankle will always be weak and that's the truth. Sure I could, but how much would I hurt afterwards?
Just a bad day for me I guess...I have those from time to time, I can't always be positive, although sometimes I feel like people are upset if I'm not.
Deep breaths and positive thoughts (trying anyway)
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Where Has The Year Gone?
It's kind of hard for me to believe that it is already November. It seems like it should still be summer. I missed out on summer this year, and it sucks that I won't get that time back. I'm so tired of the waiting for healing, it's been over 5 months, and almost 4 months since surgery. I still have problems daily, and I know it takes time but I feel so impatient, that I'm missing out on things. It's so frusterating!
I'm in the process of cleaning my bedroom, I have a lot of laundry to do, I seem to get behind on that a lot! I'm also painting the upstairs hallway and stairwell. The color is called "crisp autumn leaves" it's a really pretty brick red with some orange tone. It looks amazing, I love the color! This weekend will hopefully be the trim upstairs then on to the next room. My parents' house has white walls in virtually every room, it's time to change it up and get with the times haha.
Tonight I'm hopefully going to go see Due Date with Mary at midnight. We are both in need of a good laugh. I am so excited that this movie is finally coming out, I think it will be hilarious!
I'm still having the not-so-wonderful insomnia problem. I would like one night where I can fall asleep by myself at a reasonable time. It throws everything off, and I don't like it at all! Hopefully it will get better soon, but I'm sure, like everything else, it will also take time. I don't see the physician again about it under after the first of the year. Can't believe it's so close...here's to 2011 being a much much better year.
Peppermint Mocha kisses XOXO
I'm in the process of cleaning my bedroom, I have a lot of laundry to do, I seem to get behind on that a lot! I'm also painting the upstairs hallway and stairwell. The color is called "crisp autumn leaves" it's a really pretty brick red with some orange tone. It looks amazing, I love the color! This weekend will hopefully be the trim upstairs then on to the next room. My parents' house has white walls in virtually every room, it's time to change it up and get with the times haha.
Tonight I'm hopefully going to go see Due Date with Mary at midnight. We are both in need of a good laugh. I am so excited that this movie is finally coming out, I think it will be hilarious!
I'm still having the not-so-wonderful insomnia problem. I would like one night where I can fall asleep by myself at a reasonable time. It throws everything off, and I don't like it at all! Hopefully it will get better soon, but I'm sure, like everything else, it will also take time. I don't see the physician again about it under after the first of the year. Can't believe it's so close...here's to 2011 being a much much better year.
Peppermint Mocha kisses XOXO
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Painted
Sooo today...this will be short, I thinks...I hope!
I had a good snooze last night and I got up bright and early yo paint the landing in the upstairs hallway. The color is amazing, and it's fun to start the long needed house makeover. And the other paint swatches are decided for the main level. And the stairway and upstairs hallway wil be recarpeted, and we have a swatch for that too. The finished product with be incredible. My mom can finally have a house that she is proud of. I'm trying to enstill my knowledge (well obsession) with organizing into their lovely hearts. Hmmm I need parent treats "that's a good girl mommy, you put that back in the sink" "good boy daddy, you threw out the garbage pile in your truck...goooooood"
I'm working on invites for thanksgiving, this wil be a wonderful gathering!
I'm in the process of putting together for makeup artistry, and if I could have my polymer clay charms included in this... I thought a name like "Charming"
I dont know, I'll have to keep brainstorming,
I had a good snooze last night and I got up bright and early yo paint the landing in the upstairs hallway. The color is amazing, and it's fun to start the long needed house makeover. And the other paint swatches are decided for the main level. And the stairway and upstairs hallway wil be recarpeted, and we have a swatch for that too. The finished product with be incredible. My mom can finally have a house that she is proud of. I'm trying to enstill my knowledge (well obsession) with organizing into their lovely hearts. Hmmm I need parent treats "that's a good girl mommy, you put that back in the sink" "good boy daddy, you threw out the garbage pile in your truck...goooooood"
I'm working on invites for thanksgiving, this wil be a wonderful gathering!
I'm in the process of putting together for makeup artistry, and if I could have my polymer clay charms included in this... I thought a name like "Charming"
I dont know, I'll have to keep brainstorming,
Monday, November 1, 2010
Hair In Training..
Ok, first off, I have a beauty blog, but I figured I would post this here because the other one currently has nothing in it. (lipglossndiamonds.blogspot.com)...
How to train your hair: A solution to oily hair.
So, I thought I would share this wonderful information since it does work and has been helpful to me thus far. Training your hair does not mean training the part in your hair, it means training it to produce less oil. Not everyone has this problem, but I was one of the many who did. In order to train your hair, you will have to deal with some greasiness for about 2 weeks. Heres how:
Since your scalp produces oil, shampooing your hair will maintain that level of oil production. In order to lessen the production of oil on top of your noggin, you need to train it. How? Don't wash your hair, for about 3 days at a time. This will be uncomfortable at first, and just a gross yuck. It's better to do this when you have nothing going on that's too important to look nice for. This does not mean don't shower/bathe. You should still bathe, no one wants to be around a stinky person. Just don't wash your hair. Use a shower cap, and clean the rest of you. On the end of the third day, you can wash your hair once again, and repeat the process. I've noticed after about 2 weeks there is a lot less of a production of oil, and you can once more wash your hair (every other day is best). If this comes back, just do it again. And there you have, non-greasy-at-the-end-of-the-day-hair!
Today was a long one, I had doctor appointment after doctor appointment, and yet another increase in medication. My insomnia is still present, and I still have medication for that. Just a joy. My collarbone and ankle were both a bit tender today. I still can't wear necklaces as they irritate my surgery scar, and I can't wear heels because my ankle is too weak. My time in modeling may be retired :o( It sucks because I love modeling, but I don't know if I'll be able to again, and if I am, it won't be for quite awhile. Instead, I hope to start doing more makeup for photoshoots, and special effects. My uncle belongs to a reenactment group and they need someone to make realistic special effects wounds in a corpse preparation video (not a real corpse, a living person, I would just have to make him look corpsey).
I can't believe it's already November. This has got to be the hands down worst year ever. Most of it has been recovering, and it's still not over. More doctors appointments, followups, and treatments, more physical therapy at home, because I still do not have full mobility of my shoulder. I hope that comes back...and that the pain goes away. It's so discouraging. I'm staying positive and busy. I have been working a lot more with polymer clay, but I need to find some new things to make. My dogs are good company lately. They cuddle on me a lot when I really need it. I hope that by the end of the year I can be doing something with my life. I'm so tired of waiting around for recovery. Will it ever happen?
How to train your hair: A solution to oily hair.
So, I thought I would share this wonderful information since it does work and has been helpful to me thus far. Training your hair does not mean training the part in your hair, it means training it to produce less oil. Not everyone has this problem, but I was one of the many who did. In order to train your hair, you will have to deal with some greasiness for about 2 weeks. Heres how:
Since your scalp produces oil, shampooing your hair will maintain that level of oil production. In order to lessen the production of oil on top of your noggin, you need to train it. How? Don't wash your hair, for about 3 days at a time. This will be uncomfortable at first, and just a gross yuck. It's better to do this when you have nothing going on that's too important to look nice for. This does not mean don't shower/bathe. You should still bathe, no one wants to be around a stinky person. Just don't wash your hair. Use a shower cap, and clean the rest of you. On the end of the third day, you can wash your hair once again, and repeat the process. I've noticed after about 2 weeks there is a lot less of a production of oil, and you can once more wash your hair (every other day is best). If this comes back, just do it again. And there you have, non-greasy-at-the-end-of-the-day-hair!
Today was a long one, I had doctor appointment after doctor appointment, and yet another increase in medication. My insomnia is still present, and I still have medication for that. Just a joy. My collarbone and ankle were both a bit tender today. I still can't wear necklaces as they irritate my surgery scar, and I can't wear heels because my ankle is too weak. My time in modeling may be retired :o( It sucks because I love modeling, but I don't know if I'll be able to again, and if I am, it won't be for quite awhile. Instead, I hope to start doing more makeup for photoshoots, and special effects. My uncle belongs to a reenactment group and they need someone to make realistic special effects wounds in a corpse preparation video (not a real corpse, a living person, I would just have to make him look corpsey).
I can't believe it's already November. This has got to be the hands down worst year ever. Most of it has been recovering, and it's still not over. More doctors appointments, followups, and treatments, more physical therapy at home, because I still do not have full mobility of my shoulder. I hope that comes back...and that the pain goes away. It's so discouraging. I'm staying positive and busy. I have been working a lot more with polymer clay, but I need to find some new things to make. My dogs are good company lately. They cuddle on me a lot when I really need it. I hope that by the end of the year I can be doing something with my life. I'm so tired of waiting around for recovery. Will it ever happen?
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