Headache

ARGH... all day long I've had a headache that I can't get rid of! I hope my trip to the chiropractor tommorow will help that...

Right now I'm sitting in bed, with a snoring dog plastered to my side. Dogs are absolutely amazing, and they're probably the closest thing a person can get to unconditional love. It's great to know when things are going bad, or hope seems lost, that I have 2 furry dog children that will love me no matter what. They are what get me through the worst of days.

So my sleep pattern is still way off. At 1 :30 in the morning I'm not the least bit tired, and I wake up around 9 regardless of what time I get to bed. I guess if my body is working properly, I can't complain...My collarbone still bothers me daily..I'm coming to terms with the fact that it will likely be a constant problem. I want so much to be able to model again, but when I have days where I feel freshly broken it seems so out of reach. But I can't let pain hold me back from what I am passionate about.

I keep telling myself that I'm going to make a video to post on youtube, every day I say "oh I'll do that tommorow". Then it comes to be 1:30 in the morning and I'm like "oh crap". I want to but I still can't find the motivation sometimes. It's frusterating after everything. I keep contemplating the what if's and I know I can't do that, because the past is the past, everything I've been through has happened for a reason, and there's nothing I can change but the future. I found a really cool dream website the other night and with it had a free tarot card reading. It said not to look too much into it, just for entertainment, but it was actually fairly accurate. I was impressed.

Another one of my passions is graphics. I love creating things from scratch and seeing them come to life. Today I made/finished a graphic for a music website in Canada for t-shirts. It may be something constant as I was asked to make another design. This is the kind of release, break, business I've been waiting for, needing. It would be amazing if I could do graphics as more that just a part time thing. To have a constant flow of work in this economy would be great. I'm keeping my fingers crossed, but won't get my hopes up either. I had a graphics company name, Atropos Design, but I want something different that reflects who I am, what I do, and what I've been through. I'm thinking on it, but hope to come up with something soon. Well I've rambled for long enough tonight. It's time for me to...maybe try to sleep?
Fuzzy Snoring Doggy Kisses